Strength is moving forward…

Since I was about 10, I’ve kept journals.

Not consistently, but sporadically over the years.

After 35 years, that periodic effort has added up to a whole lot of spiral bound note books, hard cover journals, old-fashioned diaries with a key, and pieces of mismatched loose leaf and bits of paper bound together in a folder.

Sometimes – usually when I’m going through a cleaning frenzy – I read through some of these words I’ve written at different phases in my life.

I find it interesting to see that some of the things I’ve said, I’m still saying today.  And some things are, thankfully, very different.

Last week, as I was getting rid of some things I no longer needed, I came across a list I wrote in a journal.  It was about what strength means to me.

For the most part, I still believe it’s true.

I wrote this list shortly after going through a divorce, as I was contemplating my future.

Before going through that ordeal ten years ago, I didn’t think of myself as a strong person.

In fact, I even had someone tell me that I wasn’t strong because I was too calm and quiet.  Her belief was that strength had to be loud, with fists swinging, and weapons drawn.

And I believed her at the time.

But once I got to the other side of divorce, shared custody and assuming a mortgage on my own, I realized that strength doesn’t look like she said.

Actually, from my experience, it was quite the opposite…

Strength is moving forward when you feel like just giving up

Strength is doing what needs to get done, when it needs to get done

Strength is a force deep inside, it’s not superficial

Strength is maintaining your course despite the weather, the current, or the opinions of on-lookers

Strength is quiet and calm

Strength is not being afraid to be who you are

Strength is vulnerable

Strength is loving someone even when they don’t seem to love you in return

Strength is believing in your dream and taking steps to make it happen

Strength is opening yourself up to criticism, understanding what’s valuable, and using it to make you stronger

Strength is loving yourself even if it seems no one else does

Strength is the ability to endure, to keep your head above the waves even as the water seems to be rising

Strength is being angry at someone without insulting who they are

Strength is replacing your job with a mission

Strength is saying thank-you to kindness, despite unkindnesses in the past

Strength is forgiveness

Strength is being who you know you can be

Strength is not giving someone the finger when they cut you off in traffic

Strength is believing before seeing

Strength is letting the other person be right

Strength is letting go

Strength is knowing when to shut up… and doing it

Strength is making the difficult choice

Strength is gentle words, a spontaneous smile, a delicate touch

Strength is knowing that you’re never alone, even if sometimes it feels that way

Strength is something you discover you have when you overcome a challenge you didn’t know you could

Strength is not about who talks the loudest, who knows the most, or who lifts the heaviest weight… Strength is discreet, humble, and asks for help


I’ve learned a lot about my own strength since I wrote those words.

However, I’m not always as strong as I’d like to be.

I don’t ask for help as much as I should.  I’m sometimes reluctant to be kind when remembering unkindnesses.  And yes, sometimes I find it hard not be right.

But I’m aware.

I know where I fall short, so that gives me something to work on.

Because I know that I’m a work in progress.

And I am getting stronger.

Debbie

PS So what does strength mean for you?  Are you as strong as you’d like to be?

6 Replies to “Strength is moving forward…”

  1. Thank you Debbie for your “food for thought” . I enjoy your open and honest reflections and how you encourage us to look deep within to challenge and improve ourselves each day. Keep up the good work!

  2. Dear Debbie,

    I loved your post. It helped me to remember, what I already knew. That despite the noise around in our everyday life. Despite the stress the unknown may bring, that my strength is my own, it is me, and it will see me through whatever tomorrow brings.

  3. This was a much needed reminder. I thoroughly enjoyed this post and will be re-reading it regularly. Thank you for your honesty, and quiet yet powerful words.

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